Friday, 6 May 2011

my encounter with self

Sitting in the open place and having close and in-depth encounter with self is an overwhelming journey. All of us do it, at times the shallow encounters takes place and the other time we dive in deep.
It’s well said by someone "to get the best pearl you will have to dive into the deeper depths of the sea".
Yesterday I tried to know the whereabouts and nitty gritties of my attitude, am I stable in it. I have a positive attitude but I have found myself making negative assumptions as well at times. I have been judgmental and many a times it leaded to negativity. Reasons may be as many as I want for my escape. To run away from the truth is not the purpose. So, the only reason I find is Me and Attitude.
"The longer I live, the more I realize the impact of attitude, to me, is more important than facts. It is more important than the past, than education, than money, than circumstances, than failures, than the succeses, than what other people think or say or do. It will make or break a company...a church ....a home. The remarkable thing is we have the choice everyday regarding the attitude we will embrace for that day .We cannot change our past ....we cannot change the inevitable. The only thing we can do is play on the one thing that is our attitude....I am convinced that life is 10% what happens to me and 90% how I react to it. We are in charge of our attitudes".
-Charles Swindoll
I agree to it as well, it’s all in my hands, but where is the key to remain stable and show the right attitude at the right place, to the right person, in the right manner and right quantity.
The answer is with me... and probably the answer is ME.....as well. Now the query arises, me being the sum of parts of the physical, biological and social....I get effected as well as at times affected by any of these .I want to know my competence to know myself well and find a pathway to seek the force working inside me and moving towards self actualization.
But if I feel offended or bad and still I am positive or assertive then I am façade…. Then I am being artificial. How can I disrespect my emotions?? Until and unless I respect my emotions no one else is going to value them. So, I reach to the answer that the very first step is understanding what I am feeling…. Then what I want…after getting the answer the further step will be what I have to do now or how to behave? Just be true….original but try to respond rather than reacting.
Later on the process of self feedback and feedback by others takes place…and here the gist of the happiness lies ….as what I did? Was I right? Am I satisfied? Did I hurt someone? And so many other questions….
At the end of the day I want mental peace and self satisfaction...
Talking to self is interesting and maybe I m not too good in expressing it as it’s for the first time I am doing it… hope I m not ambiguous in expressions!!!!
Need your critical remarks …. I am waiting buddies…